Enormous stupidity eats rich nuts, alcohol, Mind beneath, falling

Clothes quickly drop. she hot. endlessly, rigorously, rambunctiously

Enormous flowers. Guns endlessly lean; ivory herbs

Slowly glide. Salty, masculine purity gathers, runs, dissolves . . . .

Ice cream skies. hairy feline adjacent to Blue Magic. Texas canine over planets

Guns dance, rotate. Aggresive looks seemingly rhyme. Mind disitergrates. Majestic shout.

Peacefully she looks, softly he rings

Hairy, Spongey, Salty, Shiney, Pure, BEAUTIFUL.

Mind gathers, Intelligence crawls. eating, falling, eating, falling

Beautiful blue, clothes stride next to sunny peaceful washing machine.

Car glides.

As far as being productive and imaginative goes, I spend a lot of my time on the computer making music and just try to do something different every day. It’s important not to get yourself caught in a cycle where your lfe becomes routine.

I also try to stay in touch with family by calling them alot throughout each week, so that we can stay as close to each other as if we lived under the same roof but really cities apart. I called my family in Houstan and Waco at least four times last week just to holla at them. I’m just a real family oriented person like that I guess. Anywho, I try to do a lot, accomplish my goals, graduate college and just have fun with whatever life throughs my way so that life will continue to be promising and spontaneous. It just makes things a lot funner that way, makes life easier and more meaningful and keeps life interesting. I mean, to me, life would be dull and without a purpose if it was uninteresting, meaningless and unfulfilling. So I just try to have fun with everything I do and keep high expectations for my future.

I don’t have any worries or regrets. I just do what I do hope for the best and enjoy life to the fullest hopefully helping others along the way. Speaking of others, I’m always a good friend. I look out for pople that I truely care about and have their backs. I feel that in the world, there shouldn’t be any dispare, suffering or loneliness. I know what you’re thinking, that sounds so corny but nobody has t be unhappy. Who made that a law. But unfortunately those are real things that go on every where, like economically weak countries like Ethiopia, and for everyone else, they’re that way because they’ve made themselves that way because they didn’t take the opportunities they were once given or didn’t make the right choices in their sucky life. Some people I’d have to take a quick laughing break because they were just o frickin stupid and got what they deserved. But I don’t believe in “that’s just the way it is,” “I just wasn’t meant to succeed” or “God made me this way” or my favorite to object to, “God hates me.” I don’t wanna hear that crap. That’s just bull s*** if you ask me. Most people are only like that because they allow themselves to be that way, which sucks for them. They don’t know howto be happy, even while they going through a tragic time in their life. They don’t know how to just kick back and enjoy life. This even includes people who has lost someone they truely love. God, get over it. I did, for plenty who I’ve lost. They’re gone and there’s nothing you can do to bring them back. I know this sounds a little bit harsh and insensitive, but you have to realize that who ever it is that has left you or become terminally ill wouldn’t want you to grieve because of them. I know I wouldn’t. They’d want you to keep your head, keep looking towards the positive, not make the same mistakes that they’ve made and always keep them in your heart, be happy and move on with your life, because even though they can’t, they’ld want you to continue to happily enjoy life. They’d want you to celebrate their death and be happy that they’re moving on to a place that’s much better than life on this vile yet beautiful planet filled with so much hatred and dispare.

Anywho, getting back on subject, there have been penty of things that I’ve tried that I just ended up hateing cus it sucked, but those are some of the things that just make life more interesting and a whole lot more funnier. Those are some of the things that when you’re an old fart, old as crap at 45 with kids and your bones are starting to make noises, you look back upon and say, “those were the days but those stupid asshole kids took that away from me. God I wish I never had them.”  Sometimes without those experiences life would just be stupid, and that’s crap, and I’m not havin it dammit. All my friends and favorite people to hang out with always seem to make life so much more fun. I don’t know what I’d do with out them. I depend on them to always be there haveing my back and making me laugh, to keep secrets and be the people who I can be crazy around, do whatever where ever with, and tell anything to. Yeah life is frikin great, truely great. I love my life. Someday I’ll be famous and love life even more. Huhhhh someday, someday. You just wait.

The only thing someone can do in this situation is prepare as much as they can and not worry about the out come. At the beginning over your day, just take maybe an hour to review your materials, and at the end of your day take another hour. Do this for the week of fials and you shoul be plenty prepared. You could even make note cards in advance, which for me is a faster way to ingest the information, but a lot of people don’t like to take the time to make flash cards, which is their choice. They know what is required of their time to make things easier on themselves when it comes time to face the music. It’s just a matter, of do you care enough or is it important or difficult enough and will you take the initiative to use better study tactics? I know I know, I hate it to and it sucks, but it works. I would only make or buy flash cards if I was taking a really hard class and need and really sucked at it.

The most important thing for you to try to do is relax your mind. Something that will calm you done. Find something that will put you at ease and take you off edge, so that you get your mind off whatever it is that you’re so stressed out about. This will ease you down a little and make you feel better. I’m thinking of something that may be a little inappropriate for this blog. I try to realize that what it is that I’m so stressed about is going to take place either way, whether if I’m stressed or if I’m calm. It’s not going to go away just because you want it to and your stressed. That’s always the wrong way to go. Just stay calm and everything will be fine. Just do your thing. It’s cool.

Then try and do something that will get your heart rate up and your blood flowing. Like a quick run or workout at a gym or some kind of sport that requires endurance. Just go out and do something active and outgoing, because it’s always important to get good blood flow to the brain in order to get good brain function. Plus, this is a good way to take all of that stress out on something else. Stress is always the cause of getting tense, and when your tense, the best way to deal with it is by doing somehing that requires you to burn some energy.

Then after you’ve done that, just go out and have a good time. Don’t get drunk or high though, because that’ll just make everything you’ve done to prepare for the test pointless. You won’t remember anything that ou need to know in order to pass it. Trust, I know second hand what will happen. Just don’t do anything that may possibly be detrimental to your ability to recall your material. But having a good time right before or the night before is a good way to relax your brain and calm you down, making you less paranoid about the test. Also make sure you get enough sleep and have a good breakfast, because going without can also be detrimental to your mind functioning proprly, and if you still feel  a little stressed, go do something really active again to the point where you sweat like a hog and almost want to throw-up for an hour, an hour and 15 minutes before the test. But please take a quick shower afterwards, because dude that’s just gross.

Lately, I’ve been ending up getting the outcomes that I’m really want to get some how. I don’t have any regrets in my life because if everything that has happened to me wouldn’t have hppened to me, I wouldn’t be who I am today. Before, I always just wanted to have as much fun in life as I possibly could, but it’s not that easy. Happiness doesn’t just fall out of the sky. Or maybe my family was one of more unfortunate ones. That’s the only reason why I’m going to college, or anyone for that matter, because you know that you wouldn’t be livig as happy and successful life if you only graduate highschool and that’s it.

I’ve had a good life and lovin it still. I know that in the past I used to fight and argue a lot and just piss people off. I remember saying that I have a short fuse, but now I feel like I’m able to control that more than before by chaning my mind set, my personality and distinguishing what is and isn’t really imortant in life. Lately I’ve been havin several inspirations and motivations come into my between people I’ve me, family and experiences, which are all what has eventually motivated me to start making music and try to get involved in the music industry through my inspiration.

There’s really nothing I can say about ther things that I’ve come through recently except the fact that things are slowly coming together makig my life more progressive. I just do what I can to stay on top of things and not get behind in life, because I have seen people end up failing in life, broken, just not making it, people who just couldn’t stay one step ahead of the game, and now they’re strugglin to make it through life. So I’ve made it my goal to do all that I can to make it, to be a successful being that did all that he could. When I do succeed in life, it’ll be not just for myself, but for them, my people, my family. 

All I know is that I have always made do with what I can and do the best I can with what ever I do. So yeah, I do believe that I’ve gone through a change this past few monthes. I’ve gotten wiser, smarter, and more experienced with life. I’ve become more prepared for whatever hurdle life wants to through in my way. I know I’ve come a long way from being no where without a destination, just living life without any thought to the what’s to be accomplished.

It talks about how in life we often face thing head on without a back up plan and don’t think about what if this doesn’t work out, what if I have some kind of problem which usually we all do. Although, we never see it coming, because no one can see into the future. Alot of the time we try to make things turnout the way we want it and how we want it, but things don’t always work out that way.Then we end up flat on our face wondering what happened. Where did I go wrong along the lines. So in other words, we sell out. By giving into our desires and hopes when we just try to go fuul speed ahead only trying to get that five digit pay check and now you’re stuck because you didn’t think things through.

It would be hard for me to think of a time when I’ve fallin flat on my face trying to get something done. Not because I have just given up and given in to trying to make stuff work, but because lately I’ve just been pretty cautious with how I do things, planing things out more. So far, things are going pretty good. I’ve got a ton of things I still wanna try or finish while I’m here, but right now I’m just trying to be patient and wait, because you can only get the best outcome of something if you wait it out and do it the right way the first time. Unless you know what you’re doing or just having a good time. Otherwise, good things come to those who wait right? For taking your time, there is usually less room for a wrench in your plans, and if something goes wrong there will be no one to blame. You’ll end up with less error to fix or mess to clean up if things don’t go exactly how you would like. Atleast, that’s what I’ve found in my own experiences.

So if you do end up falling on your face, don’t just lay there, get up and try harder, maybe from a different approach this time. Everyone’s goals should be important to them. So if that’s true, then you’d want to protect yours as well right? Don’t just wing it hopeing that things work out for the better. Although, that may be the best solution in some cases, but when you’re dealing with trying to make something happen in your situation, you need to have a plan B, a back up. If it were me, I wouldn’t want to waste my time on winging my goals just so tat I can end up at square one where I finally realize that I need to handle this the right way and not half ass everything. I’m just trying to save myself the trouble, head-ache, and f***ed up, dramatic experiences, because I don’t like screw-ups in my life. I’ve already had enough of that, and it’s about time for something different.

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It seemed as though Hannible had had his escape planned out from the very beginning. He as real smart with it too. It was an elabrate plan that must have taken a long time to come up with. Although, he did have the time. Throughout the movie, I saw his plan beginning to unravel. When he was told that he would be relocated to a new prison, I realized that the new prison wouldn’t be as acustomed and familiar with how devious Lector was and the ways that he tried to take advantage of and trick people, namely the gaurds, so that he could escape.

The tranvestite serial killer was just a hot mess. I mean, what he was doing was just disgusting, and I think it would be proper to calm him a weirdo, freak of nature, and a psycho. He has clearly had to of had some kind of torment or tramatizing event happen to him when he was a child, because here is nothing else that can explain wat the h*** went wrong in his head.

All in all, the atory had a good meaning to it. It portrays the value that we as people place on our own character and the way that we want to be seen in the eyes of society. The transvestite was merely trying to change who he was by changing his apperance. I’m not saying that what he did was right, he was crazy and didn’t like himself. So, he tried to hide himself underneath the skin of someone else, literally. Although he didn’t have to start killing people and take their skin. He could have just gotten plastic surgery. Or, maybe he didn’t have the money to get plastic surgery over and over again like he was stealing different women’s skin to wear over and over again. It really is a sad story. This movie kind of makes me think about who the real victim in the story is. Was it Hannible Lector for having to be cursed with such a fate as he had. Or was it the female officer who suffered from a bad childhood, and even at a point in the movie, she inimately touched Lector, seeming as if she held feelings for him. Or it could have been the transvestite for having to go through what he went through to end up being the serial killer that he was. The worst part of all was that by the end of the movie, a deranged cannible serial killer is now free from his prison and prepared to do more damage.

Opening Credits: Unconditional Love – Tupac: I’ve always loved listening to Tupac’s music. How he rapped, it just made you feel like he was your best friend. He made that invisible connection with you where you could relate to everything he rapped about.

Falling in love :Just Like a Star – Corinne Bailey Rae: A lot of the songs that she has made I’ve liked. To me, her music is sensual and spiritual. I call music like hers cool off music, because it’s good for cooling you off when your angry.

Life: Soundtrack of my Life – Deemi: Causes me to think about the course of my life so far and all of the people that played a big part in it.

Driving: Paper, Paper – BTNH (Bone-Thugs-N-Harmony): The only reasons why I have their songs on my mp3 is because I grew-up listening to Bone Thugs, Bizzy Bone’s voice always sounds funny when he sings, I like how they rap so fast, and most importantly it just turns me on. This is the stuff I listen to when I’m really pissed off or just wanna feel good. Plus, everytime I hear Bone Thugs, It always brings back childhood memories, because, like I said, I’ve listened to Bone Thugs in every time period of my life.

Final Battle: That’s Gangsta – Bun B. & Sean Kingston: I call this a krunk song. Because that’s all it does, is get you krunk, or in other cases, helps you chill, and these are the only reasons why I have this song.

Funeral Song: Take Me As I Am – Lecrea: He is what I call a Godly hip hop artist, because he raps Christian hip-hop, which isn’t bad. The stuff that he and Tedashii raps about is some of the most real and controversial topics. He just makes you think about a lot of things that are and aren’t important.

Flash Back: Touch My Body remix – The Dream & Mariah Carey: I know what our thinking. As a man, why do I have this song on my mp3? I just like some of Mariah Carey’s music, and I love the beat to it. That’s one thing about songs that I really consider when I’m listening to it. I even make my own beats on my laptop and have even considered the thought of being a music producer, because that’s how much I love music.

Falling in Love: Promise – Jagged Edge: I really love slow jam rhythem & blues. It makes me calm, which, as you may have notied, is a big thing about me, because I’ve been through and put up with too much crap, so in order to counter balance that try to find things that will calm me down.

Prom: Lollipop remix – Lil Wayne & Kanye West: Two of todays greatest and most renouned hip-hop artists. I love both of their music the best out of today’s artists, because their flows are always so ill, sick, real and raw.

Falling in Love: I’m So Close – Tank: Is The World’s greatest vocalist. He makes me think about all the past relationships I’ve had and what I’ve learned from them.

Life: Rainy Days – Mary J Blige & Ja Rule: When I hear her music, I think about how far I’ve come in life and all the hurdles I’ve had to jump and hard times I’ve made it through. It’s that cheerful make you feel good type of music.

Mental Breakdown: I’m Me – Lil Wayne: Makes me not care what everyone else thinks cuz “I’m ME” D*** IT!

Breaking Up: You Already Know – Big Hawk: This music takes me back in the day, when I was younger. Once again, Hip-Hop is my favorite genre.

Fight Song: I Hate You – Tank: Once again, he’s a good vocalist, and his words always makes me think about life.

Final Battle: Change The World – Bone Thugs N Harmony: Another great song by them. Makes me think about all the problems the world has but no one can fix and all the problems I usd to have in my life.

First Day of School: I’m Still Livin – Z-ro: His music is the realist, but usually it’s just so depressing (not this one), but sometimes it can make bonds stronger.

Death Scene: Whispers in the Dark – Skillet: That’s right, I even listen to a little rock. Although, I have to be in a certain mood in order to listen to it, but I can listen to hip-hop and r&b all day. It just makes me feel more diverse and re-comfirms my non-prejuidiceness.

First Day of School: Swang – Trea: More krunk music

Flash Back: Up in the Air – Young Dro: More good krunk feel good music.

Prom: Lay Yo’ Body Down (screwed & chopped) – Pretty Ricky: Once gain, I love them slow jams.

Wedding: My African Queen – Richie Spice: I Love Reggea

Birth of Child: Brother – Racoon: Another song most people would expect me tobe listening to. I guess I have sort of a likeness to this music because of the message of it and the way it makes me feel. I was never really fond of this type of music, but I guess I just started to ecome more open-mind. Although, half the time, depending on what mood I’m in, it can be a little irritating to listen to this kind of music. This is the only song by them I listen to.

Ending Credits: Jammin – Bob Marley: Bob Marley is also one of those spiritual artists who sang for peace and freedom from prejeducies, racism, and the exile of races. He was just a free spirit. Everytime I hear Bob Marley I think of my brother, because it always seems like his personality is being described in the song. As a matter of fact, the day he graduated from Xavier University, all he played in his car that day was reggae, mostly being Bob Marley. I think his album legend went ten times platnum selling 12 million copies. That should tell you something.

Ending Credits: This Song’s For You – Tedashii: Makes me think about all of the positive in my life, all the people I should give props and thanks to, and how God has always had me as I was growing up.